2022 Year in Books

2022 was a big read year for me. 35 books, over 10,000 pages, countless new friends in my head, new worlds explored, new feelings tapped into. But I place the most value on the new perspectives acquired by looking at the world and life’s adventures through someone else’s eyes. After doing an IQ test, EQ test, and personality test yesterday, I feel heard and seen, ha. But, one area that plagues me is deductive reasoning. I would make an awful Sherlock, although an excellent Watson. It bothers me, endlessly – my deductive reasoning is inhibited by a combination of my trauma and my lack of skill set. I tend to focus on what any moment/interaction says of me rather than what it says of the person/experience. When I do let observation take over, I feel analysis paralysis. There are characters that instantly put my brain to ease – Stephanie Plum in Janet Evanovich for instance. She is undoubtedly a hot mess on the regular, but she is logical, curious, observant, and has no problem laughing at herself. Armand Gamache in the Louise Penny novels also feels like coming home to me. These types of characters are a heated blanket for my brain. I do have people like this in my life as well, my best friends, my sister, my adopted moms. I love hearing how they think about things, especially things that emotionally plague me, because I can tap into their logic, and their distance (since their ability to observe will be heightened since it is not their personal problem). I would be lying if I said I never ask myself “what would Gamache do.”

Here’s what I learned from my reading this year:

Q1: Escape into things that are scarier than my own life, ha. Included The Ring Trilogy and the book that inspired the movie The Devil Made Me Do It. The Ring Trilogy was good 66.66%. The final book took me all year to finally get through – it went too far into Sci-Fi, when I wanted to read horror. The Devil Made Me Do It (the book is actually called The Devil In Connecticut) is  worth a mention as the first legal case using demonic possession as a defense.

Q2: So many books! Thriller, horror, and true crime. Was it a dark time for me personally? Possible 😊 My highlights:

The House in the Cerulean Sea by TJ Klune. This was light on the brain! It had some deep concepts but never dug too far into them, whether intentionally or not. I tend to like to go deep and heavy, and I was initially disappointed by aesthetically addressing societal issues of race, discrimination, displacement, “reintegration,” etc. But, the book made me think about these issues in a curious way instead of one filled with deep rooted shame and helplessness. I absolutely loved it.

My Best Friend’s Exorcism by Grady Hendrix. Ok, picture a mall in the 1980s – the stonewashed jeans, big hair, loud music, and bright colors. Now, add in a teenage girl with a demonic possession. That is this book, and it was glorious! Also a great escape even if the writing was a bit diffuse and the ending was too long. I would consider it a marriage of the movies Mean Girls and Now and Then and the show Stranger Things.

Flowers in the Attic by VC Andrews. This is a classic banned book that has some horrible neglect and abuse in it. Most people focus on the incest, but who cares when you have a grandma and mom colluding to disappear children?! Sexual experimentation is normal, and if you are isolated to experiencing adolescence with your siblings, then it logics out that some weird sexual stuff might happen. For a book written in the 60s, I get why that was more taboo than the long term arsenic poisoning taking place. And yeah, was it a bit romanticized? Sure. It was also a bit long, in my opinion. But highly recommend reading this for the societal impact this book had.

The 7.5 Deaths of Evelyn Hardcastle by Stuart Turton. This was one of my most memorable and recommended reads of the year. Read it. It kept me on my toes, trying to figure out what was happening and why. It was creative, with luscious emotive characters. I loved people, hated people, and sometimes, they were the same characters! Turton was able to create a completely fictional world that was both unique and believable. Wildly interesting.

Q3: busy hiking so only have one good book – Sybil by Flora Rheta Schreiber. You may recognize the name Sybil, the first documented case of multiple personality disorder, now known as Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID). This book is provocative because it compels. Is this fact or fiction? Was it a hyperbolized truth? Check it out and decide for yourself. Regardless, it is a curious documentation of what can happen with intense abuse during our formative years. It is not an easy read – but if you are interested in psychology and trauma, it’s a must.

Q4:  Two words. Neil Gaiman. I didn’t realize until just now that he is one of my favorite authors. I read both The Graveyard Book and Stardust. Love both – they were cute, easy, with absolutely terrific writing. (Is he married to a racist bigot? Quite possibly. I have not yet figured out how that incorporates into my appreciation of his writing, if at all. I still like Hemingway, and he was a misogynistic asshole in many ways. I am currently undecided on this bigger issue since we are all humans doing the best we can.) Other favorites:

The Magicians by Lev Grossman. Harry Potter meets Narnia but for adults. See my post Magic in My Moat for a better writeup.

Midnight at the Bright Ideas Bookstore by Matthew J Sullivan. This one surprised me! It’s a murder mystery, but it unveils itself in a nontraditional way. A clerk in a bookstore finds the body of one of her loved patrons, suicide. He left her everything he owns, which isn’t much. And as she tries to uncover why he would take his own life, she solves the mystery of her own torrid past. When she was a young girl, at a sleepover, a whole family was mercilessly murdered. She was the sole survivor. The suicide was the convergence of her past and present. I had figured out the ending, but I enjoyed the journey.

Verity by Colleen Hoover. Colleen Hoover is a-typical for me, but I devoured this book. It is my second most recommended book of 2022. Hoover does a great job of weaving this thriller through diary entries. I was skeptical of all the characters – found myself thinking “and THIS is when they turn on that person.” It was a reminder that believing the best in people goes a long way, and believing the worst in them may inspire you to act in ways you aren’t proud of. Be careful with this one as well – definite more child abuse in here and some truly despicable (and not the fun kind) behavior.

Cabinet of Curiosities by Louise Penny. Penny is another favorite author, and I look forward to reading everything she puts out. She infuses other literature and poetry and art into her detective series, along with this concept of believing the best in people. Her common theme is that even good people do bad things. Forgiveness is a key component, as is justice. This book did not disappoint – in fact, it was beautifully well done. She is a great modern Agatha Christie, with more character development. I truly love all of the characters in these books. Read everything by Penny. If you want to know how to start her books, message me.

Most of my books were bought used from Thrift Books, a local bookstore from my travels, occasionally Amazon, and often Strand Books in Manhattan.

Personal Library

I surround myself with books,

To give words to my feelings

My hopes, my dreams

The relationships that I haven’t had yet

And the ones that I have failed during

As a camaraderie, support group

The backstop to my fall, my failures

And even my insecurities.

Surrounded by greatness,

By creativity, and even the vile.

A fluid scale of normalcy

Against which I can predict how others may

Judge me,

I can prepare for anything that may come.

Witches? Ann Hoffman.

Goblins? JK Rowling.

Crazed murderer? Ann Rule.

The Unknown? Ursula K. Le Guin.

Myself? Ali Smith.

Hope and Love? Louise Penny.

The coven of friends in my personal library

Give me the tool that I need at the time,

Even if it is the Emergency Exit.

King-sian Control

I love reading books. I love reading books and talking about them with a friend even more. Sharing is truly caring in this area of life. I find other people’s perspectives and memories actually lend to my interpretation. Sometimes I think about writing book reviews like we used to write book reports, just for fun, so that I can remember the book all that much better. Nerd alert.

My girlfriend, Susan, and I have started a Stephen King book club. It’s very elite. In fact, there are only two members. To get in, you must recite your favorite SK quote by memory, disclose what shape It takes in its most natural form, pick a favorite ride from Joyland, and if you think Dolores Claiborne should be innocent or guilty.

Let me know if you want to be admitted 😊

Anyway, we are reading Needful Things. It turns out, this book is all about CONTROL. Pesky little word that is turning out to be. And not any kind of control, but straight up MANIPULATION. In true King-style, there is an element of supernatural at play, some hypnotism, and definitely a good versus evil theme.

A little background on the book (but please read it for yourself, because it is shockingly good!): Leland Gaunt opens a shop called Needful Things in a small town called Castle Rock. He panders to the deepest, darkest desires of his clientele in exchange for a small monetary fee plus a small act of service. These acts are construed as harmless pranks that Mr. Gaunt asks each customer to perform on a seemingly random townee. Once the web becomes visible, however, the sheer power of Mr. Gaunt’s control, and use of the objects of his customers’ affections to dig his hooks in, is illuminated.

What strikes me throughout my reading is that each and every person knows Mr. Gaunt is evil before they strike any deals with him. A handshake causes nausea. A smile looks leering. An approach is aggressive. Familiarity is premature. His skin feels like paper. His eyes change color depending on who is telling their story. Despite that intuition, everyone still assumes Mr. Gaunt “knows best.” Except Sherriff Pangborn who just can’t shake off his intuition that something is not right, with his gut leading him ever-closer to Needful Things and its creepy proprietor.

I am going to confess that this is not my formal book review as I still have about 30% left to read. But I am also going to tell you straight up that I can’t stop considering control as a good versus evil thing. Stick with me here. In my previous post, I explored mastery versus manipulation as forms of control. Here, as I chat with Stephen King about control via Needful Things, I wonder if we know the difference between good control and bad control based on intuition. Our 6th chakra. Ajna. Our third eye. That gut instinct that tells us – don’t do that, calm down, stop being negative, you can do this, don’t give up. That intuition that says that the universe won’t leave us on our asses no matter what is being dished out at any particular moment. That feeling that if we stay centered and uplifted, we will be able to see more clearly.

Should any one of those Castle Rock inhabitants trusted their gut, walked out of Needful Things, or, gasp, returned the item they didn’t want… perhaps Castle Rock would remain intact, rather than the town formerly known as Castle Rock. That, however, doesn’t make as good of a story.

And in this thing called life, struggle is indeed a better story. Mastery of our perception of struggle is the best story yet. Looking forward to see how this chapter of life plays out.